If you are not going to move after all

We had completely decided: we were going to move. We had been looking for a house outside Amsterdam for weeks. We already knew where. And what kind of house. And now... We're just not doing it after all.

Here's the thing. It's a bit too much. First you get married and you spend months planning that very big event in your life. It's the most beautiful day ever. You go on a trip. Then, in the blink of an eye, you're pregnant. And a few weeks later you hear you're having twins. Your world is turned upside down in a year – what am I saying, in a few weeks – and just thinking about leaving my city makes me quite sad. And this is such a special and beautiful time in my life.

So when I thought about a slightly bigger house but still in Amsterdam and also just in my familiar neighborhood, I became incredibly happy. Just at the thought of it, because we don't have a house yet. But we will find one, I'm sure of that. Too much change is just not fun anymore. So much is already changing, why would I also trade my place of residence after 12 years? Of course, someday we really want to leave that urban hustle, but now, deciding in just a few weeks... That feels a bit too fast. Really too fast. That's why everything we had planned is suddenly off the table. We just want to look for a house, in the neighborhood. So that at least that neighborhood stays nice and the same.

Suddenly I see everything incredibly positively. Becoming a trendy city mom, just like I've always been a city girl. With friends around the corner who can drop by for a kiss in the crib and a cup of coffee. Being able to bike to work. That really makes it easier to arrange. It keeps you social. It definitely keeps you young. I'm so happy. Now I just need to find that one house as soon as possible, so my husband can't back out anymore.