Kiek's zweefteefles: ‘Diving into the depths of your own mind is quite enlightening’

Corona does strange things to you. For example, I catch myself doing airy-fairy things. Things I normally wouldn't really do. Buying nice candles to set up a ‘meditation corner’. And that for someone who can't even meditate, well, that's quite exhausting.

In addition, I have completely dived into my introverted character (with an extroverted appearance). Reflecting, looking, why do I do things the way I do them, what do I struggle with? Why do I often do everything last minute? How can I click really well with one person and not at all with another? What do I actually want in life? What is my goal? I am walking more kilometers than I ever have (and I already walked quite a bit last year) and I hear myself giving tips to others that I think: hey Kiek, is that you?

The floaty-ness sometimes still feels a bit random and totally not me, but on some days I feel the need for depth and so I am now in a WhatsApp group with other floaty people and we are doing a 21-day challenge where every day a ‘task’ is given to those who want to dive deeper into their own character. It is important that you complete the task before that same day at 23:59 and then send to the group: ‘day 1 done, day 2 done etc.’, which actually doesn't fit my you-must-not-force-me character at all, but somehow it comforts me that I choose this because I enjoy it. 

Today – fuck it – I’m just going to share my task with you because I found it quite interesting. Here it comes. Grab a notebook and write down fifty names of people who have influenced your life. It doesn’t matter how. They can be passersby from your life, people who are still close to you, deceased, but also idols, for example. More is always welcome, but make sure to have at least fifty people. Ready? Then go through all the names and think about each person why this person is on your list. What influence did he or she have on your life? What feeling do you get when you think of this person? 

I honestly found it very enlightening to look at this list of names. No idea why. Maybe because you generally don’t stop to think about how much ‘the other’ can actually influence you, both positively and negatively. In the coming days, I will complete a task every day. Just to dig a little deeper into the depths of my own mind to see if there is still some gain to be made. 

P.S.: If you’ve lost your yoga mat or self-help book, I might have just stolen it, you know. 

Tschüüüüssss.

From the floaty person.

(Or this is a temporary revival in an attempt to feel meaningful in this time)

Probably the latter.

Bye.