Real life: ‘I had a one night stand with my sister's boyfriend’

Lisa (19) still lives with her parents, but her older sister Tess (25) lives in the city. She lives with her boyfriend, and Lisa has been a regular at their place for years.

‘My sister and I are six years apart, quite a lot, but we have always had a very good bond. She is and was always my great example: the way I wanted to be later. She studied law, so I wanted to do that too. When I had fights or if someone bullied me, she would pick me up from school to have a serious talk with them. She has always been there for me.

In the meantime, she has been in a relationship with Jeremy for three years, with whom she also lives in the city. I still live at home with our parents. I am very busy with my studies and can't manage a part-time job right now. But yes, living at home is also not possible, because I can't afford it at the moment. When I turned 18, Tess already said that I could always stay over at her place when I went out in the city.

That was ideal for me, because I sometimes really went crazy from my parents. I just want to do what I feel like, instead of having to report every evening whether I'm eating with them or not. Tess quickly gave me a key, so I could always sleep there if I wanted to after going out and I didn't have to wake her up for that. When Jeremy moved in with her, that didn't change anything; I was still just as welcome.

Three months ago, I was out drinking with some classmates at someone's home in the city, and I didn't feel like going back to my parents. I knew Tess wasn't there; she had a girls' weekend and was with her three best friends in the Veluwe. But I also knew Jeremy well by now and I knew I was still welcome. The chance was big that he was already asleep, so he wouldn't even hear me come in.

But Jeremy was still awake. He had also been out drinking with some friends and was still having a drink on the couch. ‘Nice,’ was my first reaction. He also gave me a beer, and that one beer turned into a few more, until it was four in the morning and we decided we should go to sleep.

I don't even remember who made the first move. We were both quite drunk and the memories are hazy, also because I don't want to remember it. But before I knew it, we were passionately kissing on the couch, taking off more and more clothes, and we had sex on that couch.

Only after it happened did it sink in what we had actually done. I had just gone to bed with my sister's boyfriend. How could I ever do that? I didn't even find Jeremy attractive and besides, I thought he was too old for me: he is 30. And I really don't want to be that sister who does these kinds of things. I felt disgusting and immediately went to take a shower.

When I came out of there, it was almost light outside and Jeremy was still on the couch. We discussed that this really must never come out. We both didn't want to lose Tess, and not hurt her. I am really convinced that it is better if she doesn't know, but I haven't felt very good for the past three months.

And I still don't dare to face Tess. I have now used corona a bit as an excuse for not visiting often, but she has also noticed that something else is going on. I really want to do my best to forget this and to act as if nothing is wrong. Facing Tess might still be possible, but with Jeremy around... I don't know if I can do that.’

In this unusual time, we asked people for their honest story. To avoid hurting others, the names of Lisa, Tess, and Jeremy have been changed.