So I was feeling completely terrible during the final episode of Mocro Maffia

Anxiety level a thousand. Sweat drops. Screaming. Hands over eyes. People, I almost want to puke. Crying. Want to run in circles around the room because I don't know what to do with myself. This can't be normal???

We can agree on one thing: Mocro Maffia deserves international recognition. This is by far the best series ever from Dutch soil. That finale, I needed a moment to recover. This is what was going through my mind while watching...

1. First of all: FUCK FERRY BOUMAN, SAY HELLO TO TONNANO! This warrior is so tough. That scene where he walks into that trailer park all by himself: brilliant. This man deserves a Golden Calf for that shit.

2. No, but just for a moment, okay. This man is the season hero. ‘Did you see that bus? Full. The whole f***ing peloton. Come all of you one by one.’

What a f***ing admiral, this man.

3. And I haven't even mentioned the epic scene where the guy, completely high on pills, pretends to be on the phone with a stack of cash and forces others to do the same, HAHAHA.

4. Honestly, I hate that crazy Brabant uncle. (I must say that this guy achieves more in half a season than Adil and his posse do in two and a half seasons. They just immediately get the Pope...)

5. Meanwhile, we’re also having fun on Twitter: ‘Tonight is the night and my anxiety is all over the place. Wollah if my homie Tonnano dies, that's it, I’ll call my work to say I’m not coming because I have to arrange a funeral for him and myself.”

6. Tatta might have had one crazy eye situation, but the Pope now has a much crazier eye, HAHA.

7. NOOOOOOOOOOO JOEY.

8. Seriously, my friend had to calm me down at this point, I was almost crying. You had so much choice, why Joey?

9. NOOOOO NADIRA. OMG WHY IS EVERYONE DYING LORD HAVE MERCY!!!

10. Wow, when I saw Romano, I’m telling you honestly: I was shocked. I had completely forgotten about this man.

11. So nice that Tatta is still teasing his uncle. This man has proven what real loyalty is. Glad he’s friends again with the Pope and Pencil THANK GOD is not getting shot. Still a bit of a happy ending, minus Joey.

12. Bottom line: this was a leeeeipe episode. I’m just angry and sad, because of Joey but also a bit happy because of Pencil, but mostly confused and don’t know what to do with the misery anymore. This was the hardest season finale in history.

Drop the mic.

P.S.: A completely unexpected situation for next season: the Pope and Pencil are going to work together, there’s going to be a war with the Mexicans and tadaaa, there’s Romano again. Joe.

P.P.S.: How can they make us wait another year?!

P.P.P.S.: RIP Joey.