Things you think about during your first heartbreak

My first heartbreak: one big drama. I didn't know what hit me and thought it would never be okay again, that I was marked for life. Until two months later I fell in love again and realized that life doesn't stop at sixteen. Now I laugh hard about it, little did I know.

Yet you never forget that first time. I dare bet that the following very dramatic thoughts also haunted your mind:

1. This will never be okay again. Everyone can say otherwise, but those people don't know what they're talking about. My heartbreak is a whole different story.

2. So this is what it feels like to have a broken heart. Those pains in my chest, will they ever go away?

3. Maybe I can find on Google how to deal with a broken heart. Look, it's already in the search results. Nice to know I'm not the only one who is so deep in the pit.

4. How did Bridget Jones do this? Didn't she lie on the couch with a tub of Ben & Jerry's? Maybe I should do that too. Yes, I'm going to do that tonight and I'll also put on a really sad movie. That will surely do me good.

5. Should I delete him on Facebook now? That seems like the best way to get over this. Or should I change my status to ‘it's complicated’ just in case it gets better? No, this is a closed chapter, I'm going to block him everywhere.

6. How long is this feeling going to last for God's sake? I really can't take this anymore, I can't do anything.

7. Why do you even have to go to school when you have a broken heart? That's just ridiculous, right? And why don't my parents write a note for me saying I'm absent for this reason? Nobody realizes how bad this is, they all underestimate my sadness.

8. Fortunately, I have my girlfriends who are helping me through this. They at least understand what I'm going through, even if they probably haven't experienced it as intensely as I am now. Still, I'm glad to have them.

9. Will I ever find someone who fits me? I hardly think so. To be honest, I don't want to be with anyone at all. I really need time for myself and maybe I like it so much that I stay single forever.

10. No one, absolutely no one can be trusted. In the end, you only have yourself; luckily I can trust myself.

11. Should I send one last text? With some song lyrics in it? Or would it be better to put a catchy line in my second name on MSN? Yes, I'm going to do that, that will definitely have more impact. If he sees that, he'll regret it anyway, but then it will be too late. Payback time.

12. Is it too soon to meet someone else already? Luckily I'm still in demand, but I don't know if I'm ready for this yet. I just had a serious relationship for two months, that's not nothing.

13. Or is it actually a good distraction to start dating again? I had said I wouldn't do it anymore, but maybe I should give it a chance. After all, I read on Google that this is the way to get over heartbreak. Okay, I'm just going to do it. I deserve to have fun.

14. They were right: it really does get better. I don't think about my ex for a second anymore, what did I even see in him? He was really way too young at heart. Glad to be rid of him.