Dating

#FML: ‘I'm in love with my internet girlfriend’

By Amayzine | #!31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:000031#31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:00-2Europe\/Amsterdam3131Europe\/Amsterdam202331 17pm31pm-31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:002Europe\/Amsterdam3131Europe\/Amsterdam2023312023Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200002007pmMonday=9#!31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:00Europe\/Amsterdam7#07-17-2023#!31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:000031#\/31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:00-2Europe\/Amsterdam3131Europe\/Amsterdam202331#!31Mon, 17 Jul 2023 14:00:00 +0200+02:00Europe\/Amsterdam7#

A few months ago, I got in touch via Instagram with someone who makes my heart race. I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for six years, but now I am experiencing emotions I didn't know could run so deep.

Initially, it was just innocent fun, a bit of flirting online. Or actually, not even flirting. Emma started following me, and I immediately saw that we had a lot in common. Soon we exchanged messages, and before I knew it, we were good (internet) friends. As the months went by, our conversations became more intense and personal. We shared our deepest desires, our fears, and our hopes for the future. It felt like we had known each other for years, as if we were each other's soulmates.

I also notice that my heart skips a beat when I see that I have a message from her, something I have never felt with a regular friend. I have also wondered a few times whether this could be more than just a friendship. Now I stand at a crossroads: on one hand, I have my stable relationship with my boyfriend who has supported me for years and whom I love, on the other hand, there is Emma, who makes my heart sing and gives me a sense of connection that I don't recognize from other relationships.

Now so many questions are racing through my mind: is this just a temporary fascination or is it really a kind of love? Does she feel the same way or does she just see me as a friend? Should I tell my boyfriend about these feelings or is it better to keep this to myself? I notice that I now tell Emma much more than I do him, and that is not fair to him either.

Maybe it's time to follow my heart and open up about all these feelings, even if it means risking the stability of my relationship and taking a leap into the unknown. No matter how scary it is, I want to be honest with myself and embrace everything that fulfills my heart, whatever that may be. But before I do that, I need to think very carefully about it myself first…