“His lips and tongue trace a path from my hip down”

Roos takes the train from Schiphol to Amsterdam. And walks straight into the arms of someone she knows all too well.

I push my suitcase in front of me over the platform. I skillfully weave around the dawdling tourists, who are bent over the route map on their phones. Amsterdam is busy in the summer, too busy. I take the back exit of the station and walk to the spot where the Ubers gather. With two clicks, I summon mine. When I look up to find my Uber, a shock runs through me. Cas is looking at me from a few meters away. Cautiously, I raise my hand to him.

“Hi Roos”, says Cas as he pulls me in for a hug. “Long time no see or hear.” Do I detect something reproachful in his voice? I look down. He is right. I do my best to avoid him and Sophie. I mumble something about Paris and my vacation. He places his hand on my arm. It seems like he wants to say something, but at that moment a car honks impatiently next to me. I break away from him and quickly walk to the Uber. “Say hi to Sophie”, I say quickly and I let myself sink into the leather upholstery. Cas watches me as we drive away.

A groan rises from his throat

The Uber maneuvers quickly through the city, but I hardly notice. I think of Cas. Of his body, of how he smells. The desire for him is greater than I thought. At home, in front of the door, the Uber driver tosses my suitcase onto the sidewalk. I start hauling my large suitcase up the narrow stairs. Meanwhile, I curse myself for never managing to go on vacation with just hand luggage. Once upstairs, I roll the suitcase into the hallway and immediately unbutton my blouse. I am clammy from the heat.

Around me on the floor, three piles of laundry form. I quickly toss my gray travel pants onto the last pile. Suddenly, I hear soft knocking on the front door. I perk up my ears. Really? I hear it again, now a bit louder. Quickly, I grab my sheer kimono from the pile and wrap it around me. It must be the neighbor. When I pull the door open, Cas fills the small hallway. He runs his hands through his hair but stops abruptly when he sees me. His eyes roam over the revealing kimono, under which I am only wearing my bra and thong. I suddenly feel very naked. Cas doesn’t move, just stares. Then a groan rises from his throat and he pushes me into the hallway.

I close my eyes as I feel his hands on my body. It shouldn’t be happening, but I feel defenseless. Something about him makes me forget everything. Forget hair. With his fingers, he loosens the belt of my kimono. He pushes the fabric off my shoulders. His hand finds the clasp of my bra on my back and he unhooks it. I stand before him in the hallway and let him undress me. As his fingers hook onto my hips behind my thong, he sinks to his knees in front of me on the floor. His lips and tongue trace a path from my hip down, until he kisses me there. I search for support with my hands on the wall behind me, afraid that I might otherwise give in.

He bites into my neck

Cas licks me slowly, deliberately. I feel his tongue playing with me and the desire to feel him inside me courses through me. With my hands, I grab his hair as he suddenly speeds up. I wobble on my legs as he first slides one finger and then a second into me. He sucks and licks me with his mouth while moving his fingers rhythmically inside me. I cover my mouth with my hand to muffle my moans. But it’s too intense, too much. Cas kneads my buttocks with his free hand and I feel the small shocks coursing through my legs and belly. He feels it too.

As he stands up, I quickly unbutton his pants. He pushes me against the wall. His tongue fills my mouth and I cling to his shoulders as I wrap my legs around his waist. Cas pulls back for a moment to position me correctly and then he thrusts me firmly against the wall in one go. I feel the wainscoting against my buttocks and his clammy body against my breasts. Only now do I realize how much I wanted him. He lets himself go completely and as his body tightens and he comes inside me, he bites into my neck and holds me tightly.

Cas lets me go and gently sets me down on the ground. “I have to go,” he whispers, straightening his clothes. He opens the door, glances back once, and leaves me naked in the hallway. He disappears as quickly as he came.

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