Hey, it's okay to feel good/not good/good/not good during this time

During FaceTime calls with friends, I actually keep coming to the same conclusion. On one hand, I feel gratitude. Grateful that I still have a job. Grateful that I don't have family members on ventilators in the hospital. Grateful that my grandmother's funeral was a week before that fateful press conference that changed everything. Grateful for a nice house with a big garden. That I have a lovely partner. No children yet.

But then a few days go by and I become sad, grumpy, and frustrated because I miss my ‘old’ life. Because my birthday is now going to be ‘stupid’. Because that Chill-On-the-Antilles vacation is canceled. But then... life hits me back like a boomerang. When I read that women who want to have an abortion now have no possibility to do so. Not even if they have been raped. Children who are being abused at home are now locked in that house 24/7 and can no longer escape to school. Crying entrepreneurs who are on the brink of despair. Grandpas and grandmas who have to say goodbye to each other over the phone…

And then I immediately return to gratitude mode. And suddenly I feel a bit guilty about my ‘mini-problems’ compared to the problems of people who have it much worse. Which is also silly, because you also have the right to your mini-problems. But you get my point. It’s quite complicated when that process hops back and forth in your head every few days. Anyway: every time I feel mweh, I put on a certain song. By my girl Bibi Espina & Ginger.

Do you also feel mweh these days? Then listen to this song. It helps. Really.

Yes, it will be okay… Yes, it will be okay… Yes, it will be okay…

Everything will be okay… Everything will be okay… Everything will be okay…