Why I am terrified of anal sex

As a woman, I have the luxury of not necessarily having to: anal sex. And despite the fact that I would never want to try it, I do have an enormous fascination for it. I simply cannot imagine that you would do that voluntarily. When I talk to my best friend, he tells me in vivid detail (well okay, not really the details) how his sex life is as a single gay man. But still, it repulses me; it just seems awful and it's not necessary for me.

A few things I am most afraid of:

– The preparation that comes with it
I had never thought about it, but apparently a lot needs to be done and arranged before it happens. There are special enema bottles to properly clean your anus and the last part of the intestines. What bothers me most about this is that it ruins the mood. It's not like you can just take off your clothes in the heat of the moment; you first have to retreat to the bathroom for an extensive preparation. I would come back totally cooled off.

– Dirt despite the extensive preparation
Despite all the rinsing beforehand, it can still happen that some dirt comes into play. After all, it’s about your exit, where you suddenly insert something. Due to that stimulation, your intestines can unintentionally start working, and that’s just something you can’t prevent when your exit is wide open.

– Greater chance of cuts
It’s not for nothing that anal sex can be preferred. The anus has the habit of keeping itself as closed as possible, which makes everything there extra tight. And then you naturally run the risk of tearing something. It seems awful to me, especially because you can still have trouble with it for a long time afterward when you go to the bathroom.

– Painful
Because as I said before: the anus does not naturally want to open for something being inserted.

– It’s unnecessary as far as I’m concerned
I don’t believe it’s necessary for me to get over it and just try it. I have plenty of other options when it comes to sex, and I will never add anal sex to that.