When you finally know whether you're having boys or girls

A twin in your belly also means that you don't have two, but three options regarding the gender. And that makes it extra exciting, believe me.

I didn't have it anymore. Through the Nipt test, we knew quite quickly, after 11 weeks, that we would at least have one boy. We were happy. But I still didn't know: would it be a boy and a girl or two boys? I really thought it would be the first. I thought I felt it in everything and honestly? It also seemed nice to me. One of each, a nice mix, a little version of my guy and a little version of me.

Because I couldn't handle the tension anymore, I decided to schedule a pre-scan. Of course, I didn't tell anyone, it was our secret. And yes, it happened. That which I did NOT plan. That which I did NOT expect. It's two boys. Two boys in my belly. He saw another little penis. I couldn't believe it. I had to genuinely say goodbye to that girl, my daughter, who had never existed. That sounds strange, but every second of the day I thought there would also be a girl in my belly. Together with her little brother. And now... Two little brothers. A boys' family. At least, for now. You never know what comes next, of course. But it was a shift.

Is this a difficult post to write? Yes. Because being honest can be difficult. I might have secretly hoped for a girl deep down. That sounds so superficial and I was also disappointed in my own feelings. But I have discovered why. You're a psychologist or not, of course. I just don't know any other way, with two sisters. And because I come from such a warm nest, that's my ideal picture. Then you're also a woman yourself. So you know everything about woman things. You also want to do woman things because you enjoy it. But it's nonsense, of course, because your own family becomes your own family, because you make it the way you make it, together with your husband. Gender plays no role in that at all. It was just a matter of getting used to the new picture.

Now I have finally told everyone. And how. With the prettiest cakes (no joke) from my favorite store Life of Pie Amsterdam, the party was complete. Guys, there were pearls and glitter and golden specks on my cupcakes. I mean, how cozy do you want it to be? It felt like their first birthday. In fact, for every birthday that comes, I want such a cake. New tradition. Their first mini-party has already been celebrated, for these two little rascals in my belly. And how nice it is to be able to talk about it with everyone now. My father has been grinning all day. After three daughters, he becomes a grandpa of two boys. He thinks that's amazing. And my mother-in-law said so sweetly: ‘You already have your girls’ family because you grew up with sisters. Now with Billy, you're getting your boys' family and you have both.' I hadn't looked at it that way yet. And she's exactly right. That's how it is.

I feel privileged, with those boys who will be here in a few months. I'm already looking forward to seeing them. And watching them grow up. And taking them to soccer. I'm over the moon. Grow nicely in my belly, little ones. You are so, so welcome.

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